Dear Thelma: Chris & I
Aug 12th, 2008 by Clare
Disclaimer: This is a long overdue emo diary entry that I had written a couple of years ago. So before I burn the book, I decided to save one particular entry here (ala Dear Thelma) for future reference. Just for the record, read this as fictional as you can becausesomea lot of the details might be addedto make the post longerfor more ooomph!
*Chris and I have been together for a while now. I was attracted to Chris when I first set my eyes on him and vice versa. They called it love at first sight. During the courting period, Chris was all sweet, charming and caring. Even though we were far apart, Chris never failed to show his affection for me. I was deeply touched even though at that time I was in self-denial that I have a crush on Chris.
When I was back, he’d spend time hanging out with me every night. After a while, of late, I feel as though Chris just does not care about our relationship anymore. He’ll sit in front of his PC, playing his computer games and totally ignoring me. I only exist when he wants to make love. He gets upset whenever I refused sex (I had valid reasons). Other than that he doesn’t care much at all.
I don’t think I am doing anything wrong. I tend to be there for him more, I comfort him when he’s upset, I nursed him when he’s sick, I’d do anything for him. He says that he loves me but he doesn’t show it anymore. One day he can be all sweet and nice towards me but he can be a complete ass the next. I suspected meth! He doesn’t share anything with me anymore. He’d use lame excuses not to spend time with me.
I’m very depressed! You may think that I am over-reacting but I’m merely expressing how I feel. I love Chris a lot but if he carries on behaving like that, I’m either going to drive him away by constantly asking for his care or he’s going to drive me away because of his lack of care! **Help me, I wanna kill myself!
*Name has been changed
**Okay, I just added the last part! 
In case you think everything I wrote there is real, read the disclaimer again and don’t keep asking!
men are all lidat wan lah; when want sex very nice to you, when sex finish caring also finish! you must learn to be a cock teaser & make him want you kau kau before you put out! hahahaha
Wuching the Sex Guru, you can start charging people for your ‘advise’ already
i am sure there is a tad bit of truth there right?
A bit, yeah
He gets upset whenever I refused sex (I had valid reasons). quote unquote. i wonder if this is fictional….hmmmm…. :p
You know me well, my dear
Aper ni Clare? Come, talk to big momma. =p
Bila masa engkau jadi big momma?
hahaha share more those emo talk in ur diary wif us~~
Hmm…will find something interesting in there to share…
Who’s Chris?…Hahahahahaha!!!!
I’m confused.. Where are you exactly? You like at so many places. Yesterdat ur in Langkawi then today you’re in Kch, tomorrow to the MOON? Maybe…
Langkawi one was two years ago. Only get to post about it now after browsing through my pictures. You see my hair is different in the Langkawi photos compared to the Kuching ones? Solve the mystery yet?